Sorry it’s taken me so long to write back. I’ve been busy, you know how it is or maybe you don’t. Somehow you’ve always seemed to make time for me. Even amidst injustice, betrayal, & the abandonment of those whom you loved most; you thought of me.
I can’t seem to remember a lot, maybe it’s just stress, but I also struggle to honestly find rest. I do know that when I talked with you more & came to you at times when I wasn’t struggling, things were different. Things were better & I wasn’t bitter.
Everything is different now, even as I approach Easter today. It seems routine in some ways; predictable at best. But since we make sure to go to church, our heart can rest that with God once the clock strikes noon or once we digress? To me this doesn’t sit well, in fact I feel this mindset would do better in hell if it weren’t for the fear & knowledge the demons have of you. Although if the citizens of hell have gotten anything right it’s their fear of you God, for this I know is true.
While Jesus, your beloved son, chose to surrender willingly & gave reason for song to be within our voice; I have chose willingly also, unfortunately at times to be a fool. God I’m not just thankful for the sacrifice your son made that will amaze to the end of my earthly days, but I’m thankful you still rejoice to hear from me after all the stupid choices I’ve made. I may never be the best at anything or even the worst, in someways just another part of the herd. But this is not of your concern; all you ask is that I turn all of my trust from being myself to you. You, God, the only one who has never left me & never will. The one who saved me even though I don’t deserve it. What I ask right now, yet again my father God, is that you would show me the way. I want to glorify your name not just today, but the rest of my life. May we reflect on you, praise & glorify you, but especially thank you throughout this day: Resurrection day.
Your precious creation: Man
“Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run withendurance the race that is set before us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 For consider Him who has endured such hostility by sinners against Himself, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.”-Hebrews 12:1-3
This post is partly inspired by this song. Happy Easter everyone.