As a pre-teen & teenager I used to connect with many song,
Modern day “psalms” of a hole in me, a void, an encompassing darkness.
Only a few years later I can still connect with these songs on a deeper and less angst filled level,
More healthy, understanding, & at times laughably.
To think I used declare these things over myself naively,
And then wonder why I was left feeling so miserably.
I say the word declare, not to sound clever
But to instill how much power there is in a breathe of air.
Words can be more piercing than a bullet,
With words there are no blanks, there is always meaning.
It’s the difference between watching an explosion and being in it,
One affects you mostly in a mental way while the other affects your whole being.
So be careful not only in what you do, but also in what you say.
For it could bring life or death any time of day.
So as I live my life for God,
I want to make it clear I don’t just do it to save my soul.
For this is a gift that comes with knowing my author,
My life is His both for me to know being whole & for His joy to come forth.
Team “me” has had many games and really no victories,
But there’s victory to be found in teamwork and interdependency.
Interdependence isn’t just a choice, it’s a need.
Sometimes we don’t see it, & in stubbornness we strive on our own until we bleed.
All who are hard and calloused,
Please soften soon.
It may not come with ease,
But you won’t regret it.
Listen to my pleas not for my benefit,
But to bring some understanding and ease
To your life that is controlled by good intentions and busy deeds.
“You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.” C.S. Lewis (the quote behind the title)